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Today it's been hard to get anything done. Everywhere I turn, anxiety pops up. Like this.

The old Office paperclip popup, telling me it looks like I'm trying to live but it can't help, because I suck

But [personal profile] lynnoconnacht was chatting with me, and suggested I write about how my mental health affects my creative work. The glib answer would be to screencap an empty Word document, but it's not quite that simple -- some aspects of writing help. As long as they have rules. So when I'm depressed or anxious, I'm unlikely to write a story (and free verse like yesterday's poem is rare), but I could write a sonnet. Or a villanelle.

So, for your delectation, I wrote a fairly bad villanelle about writing a villanelle to make myself feel better, to make myself feel better. CC BY-NC-SA, as before. The title is a reference to Sylvia Plath's Mad Girl's Love Song, just because it is also a villanelle and it has mad in the title.

Sing me moonstruck

Piece by piece, I assemble my art --
my defence, my spell, my secret intent,
the dam, lest this tear me apart.

It's easier to let go than once more to start
to turn back the way my courage went.
Piece by piece, I assemble my art:

a shield, a prayer, a map or chart,
a hope, when imagination's spent.
The dam, lest this tear me apart.

When there are no more words, nothing to impart
the form and rules still dissent
so piece by piece, I assemble my art --

a villanelle, a sonnet, a dart
of light, by other poets lent.
A dam, lest this tear me apart.

Line by line, beat on, my heart,
ignore the fear that nags, torments.
Piece by piece, I assemble my art --
the dam, lest this tear me apart.

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Date: 2013-07-04 08:19 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] lynnoconnacht
I like it a lot, actually. <3 (Insightful comment is insightful, I know.)

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